Monday, October 8, 2007

Falling Behind

I've always been one to bit of more than I can chew, burn the candle at both ends, put too much on my plate - whatever idiom you choose to use for someone who tries to do too much, chances are it applies to me.

It's 9:00 pm and as I sit here frustrated; although I realize that I probably couldn't ever accomplish everything on my overly-ambitious to-do lists, even if weekends were 4 days long, I'm angry with myself for not being able to accomplish more.

Of the things on my list: packing up a custom order dress for my friend Daniella and putting together some fabric samples for a very sweet, very patient woman who has asked me to help design a crib skirt for her baby. Yet, here I sit, at 9 pm, exhausted after putting in a long day at the office, cooking dinner, checking email and trying to squeeze in a little exercise.

I have great visions of what I want to do for our first child - of the scrapbook pages I'll make, the clothing I'll sew, the super cool projects that will decorate the baby's room. But, I wonder if I'll ever get around to all of it.

I'd like to blame it on the baby - to think that my lack of energy is the result of this thing growing inside of me - but quite honestly, I can't think of a single period in my life in which I haven't felt like I was behind the proverbial 8-ball. Perhaps I thrive on this type of self-applied pressure - maybe it's my own form of motivation. But, damn, can it get exhausting.

I'm always amazed by those women - you know the ones I'm talking about. The ones who manage to put their photos in albums, complete scrapbook pages before the event being memorialized is over a year old, manage to cook, bake and garden, hit the gym every day and find time to write about it. Anyone know their secret?


4 comments:

em said...

I don't even have children, and I can't keep up with life!! I think your visions will become more of a reality than you imagine. :)

Paige Henderson said...

cocaine . . .

Holly said...

I agree with Paige.

It seems to me that my list has become so huge that it has it's own list.

I keep mine in excel, it has 4 tabs at the bottom, each pertaining to a different area, then each of those tabbed pages has their own lists by categories.

It is out of fricking control-more like the outline for a Russian novel than jsut something to keep me focused and organized!!

Daniella said...

Robin - I'm going to call you today. I got the dress and the little t-shirt and it's single-handedly the most beautiful thing that I have ever seen. I actually cried when I opened the box.